Recipes I Never Shared (Second edition)

Prologue: The Last Recipe I Made for Them

I used to cook to be accepted.

Not just to fill empty plates, but to fill empty spaces between us—between me and them.

I learned early on that food was language in their family. It was the way love was measured and bartered.
A dash of salt meant you cared.
An extra helping meant you belonged.

So I seasoned meals to please their tastes, not mine.
I baked pies with the right crust, roasted vegetables until they were soft enough for their liking, and followed recipes handed down with unspoken rules.

I brought dishes to their gatherings, hoping for a nod of approval, a smile, or even a “not bad.”

But the nods never came. The smiles were rare. The “not bad” was the best I ever got.

I cooked for their approval, for their acceptance, for their love.
But I wasn’t tasting my own food anymore.

Recipes I Never Shared

Prologue

I used to cook to be accepted.
I seasoned meals to please their tastes, not mine.
I brought dishes to their gatherings, always hoping for a nod of approval, a half-smile, a “not bad.”

They never said thank you.

And I kept going.
Kept trying.
Kept shrinking.

Until one day, I stood in their kitchen—holding a casserole I made from a recipe his aunt dictated—and realized I couldn’t even taste my own food anymore.

So I left.
No note. No explanations. Just a packed bag and a quiet exit.

And a promise to myself:
I will eat to feel. I will cook to heal.

The Flavor of Leaving

Prologue

Everyone talks about leaving like it’s one decision, one suitcase, one door closing behind you.

But for me, it began with a cup.

A cup of bitter chamomile tea I drank in silence while his mother accused me of “making everything complicated.”
A cup of cold coffee I poured out after his sister made me feel small in my own kitchen.

It wasn’t until I made a smoothie at 2 a.m.—blueberries, oat milk, a banana and silence—that I finally heard it.

My body saying, Enough.

That was the first drink I made for myself—not to serve, not to calm the room, not to fix someone else’s mood. Just to soothe me.

Beneath the Blends

Prologue

I didn’t leave because of one big argument. I left because of a thousand tiny ones—unspoken, invisible, but deeply felt.

It was the way his mother looked at my plate when I served myself seconds.
The way his brother called my career a hobby.
The way I laughed less and chewed more carefully, shrinking each day.

Leaving wasn’t brave—it was necessary.
Staying was what had required courage.

But now, I was free. And hungry for something deeper than comfort.
I was starving for myself.

Blending Myself Whole

Prologue

Raya didn’t notice the moment she lost herself. It wasn’t loud or obvious—it happened slowly, in the quiet moments. In skipped meals. In forced smiles. In dinners with his mother where she chewed carefully and said little. In the way his family treated her like a guest in a life she helped build.

She had spent years trying to blend in. Shrink down. Make peace where there was no soil to plant it.

When she finally left, her body felt hollow. Not just from heartbreak—but from depletion.

She needed food. She needed rest. She needed herself back.

Sip by Sip, I Let Go

Prologue

Camille didn’t leave in the middle of the night. She left at 2:17 p.m. on a Wednesday, right after folding her last pair of jeans and placing them carefully into a box labeled Start Over.

Five years in that house. Three with him. Two with his family slowly taking up all the space she once thought was hers.

It ended not in fire, but in silence. And when she closed the door, she knew: They don’t get to define me anymore.

Not him. Not them.

What came next? She wasn’t sure. But she had a blender, a fridge full of fruit, and a hunger to feel good again—starting with what she chose to put into her own hands.

The Smooth Way Out

Prologue

Jasmine didn’t cry when she packed her last bag. She didn’t scream or throw anything. She just zipped the suitcase, unplugged the phone charger from the wall, and walked out of Malik’s apartment for the last time.

It wasn’t just Malik she was leaving—it was his mother’s judgment, his sister’s loud voice, and the version of herself that stayed too long trying to make a place feel like home when it never was.

A week later, with her life in boxes and her peace finally within reach, Jasmine made a promise to herself: No more waiting for someone to save me. I’ll nourish myself—mind, body, and soul.

Sweet Again: The Thrush, The Breakup, and the Smoothie Jar

Prologue

When Jasmine left her ex’s apartment for the last time, she didn’t just leave behind photos, clothes, and five awkward years. She left behind the version of herself that didn’t listen to her own body. The one who waited for permission to rest. To heal. To put herself first.

A month later, when she caught a respiratory infection and ended up on Amoxicillin, she thought: Of course. One more thing to clean up.

But what came next wasn’t just about a pill or an infection. It was about starting over—from the inside out.

The Reflection of Freedom

The old vanity in Lydia’s childhood bedroom had once been a thing of beauty. Its mirror, now cloudy with time, had reflected her dreams when she was young. She had imagined a future full of warmth, where love was freely given, where she wasn’t just tolerated but cherished.

But the house had never been a home. The furniture, elegant but cold, was much like the family that owned it—beautiful on the surface but empty beneath. Words of affection were sparse, replaced by criticism disguised as concern. Lydia had spent years trying to please them, to carve a space for herself in their rigid world, but the edges were too sharp, and she was tired of bleeding.

Finding Beauty Beyond

 The antique chair in the corner of the living room had always fascinated Ava. Its carved wooden frame, though worn, still held traces of beauty. A relic of the past, much like her family's love—something that had once been warm but had long since faded into something cold and unyielding.

She traced the patterns with her fingers, remembering the nights she had sat there, listening to her parents argue, to her siblings dismiss her dreams, to the silence that always followed when she spoke. She had tried for years to make them see her, to love her in a way that didn’t feel like obligation. But love shouldn't have to be earned.

So she left.

Letting Go of Family

Here's a story about breaking free from a painful family dynamic and finding true belonging. 

Mara sat in the dim light of her childhood bedroom, the walls still bearing the posters she had put up as a teenager, now curling at the edges. The house was quiet except for the occasional creak of the floorboards. It wasn’t home anymore—it was just a place where she was tolerated, not embraced.

She had spent years trying to earn their love, twisting herself into whatever shape they needed. But it was never enough. Her mother’s sighs of disappointment, her father’s sharp words, her siblings’ indifference—each had chipped away at her, piece by piece.

A New Beginning

Chapter One: Ex-Family

It was a typical Friday evening in the small town of Hillside, the kind of evening where the sky was streaked with the last colors of a setting sun, and the cool breeze promised the arrival of autumn. But inside the old house on Maple Street, things were far from typical.

Abigail sat on the worn couch, her fingers twisting nervously around the hem of her sweater. Her eyes flickered to the family portraits that lined the walls, their once-vibrant colors now faded with time. The frames had been bought for moments that seemed so distant now—moments when they were whole, when they were a family. But the people in those pictures had changed. She had changed.

Moving on from family

Elliot sat at the dinner table, the same table where arguments had unfolded for years. His mother picked at his choices, his father dismissed his ambitions, and his siblings barely glanced up from their screens. It was always like this—his dreams were too big, his emotions too much, his presence too inconvenient.

He used to fight for their attention, to prove his worth, to show them that he was more than what they saw. But the years had worn him down. Tonight, as his father scoffed at his plans to move away and start anew, something inside him settled. He was done trying.